Lilith

by Eden Ariel

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(13) her castles shall be overgrown with thorns, her fortresses with thistles and briers. she shall become an abode for jackals and a haunt for ostriches. (14) there shall the Lilith repose, and find for herself a place to rest. (17) and with his hands He marks off their shares of her; they shall possess her forever.


all songs written & recorded by my alter ego lilith in my bedroom
(except for headless horseman - vox recorded at cu records)

album proceeds donated to st. michael's home for girls

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released October 3, 2017

thanks to: juliet, sedona, briallyn, veronica, taylor, & all the witches of new york, to caroline, and to woodstock, to the horse i almost ran away on, & to the frog in the garage, rest in peace, to all the girls at st michael's, to all the artists who have given me the courage to write about the things that terrify me, & to lilith --

for every woman who was ever called mad for dreaming, ever called weak for sadness, ever told that she could not be free

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Track Name: Elsewhere
are the bombs still raining from the stars
i can't see from the poison gas in my eyes
apocalyptic devastation
summer of mutation

now we live under a desolate red sky
we watch the skeletons fly
play jazz in our broken trailer
and try to realign our spines

the bomb's gone off
everybody's gone
there's only us

i see you in the junkyard with your saw
cutting up radio parts and cars
what are you making out there
what are you doing in the dark

i can't remember what i just said
i've thought some things i can't let myself ever think again
think the radiation's gone to my head

and i'm not here
i'm not there
i'm elsewhere

the bomb's gone off
everybody's gone
there's only us
and our thoughts

and the sky the color of blood
i'm flying like a skeleton past a moon of bones
can you hear that old ghost
playing his saxophone

i'm not here
i'm not there
i'm not anywhere

i'm elsewhere
i'm not here i'm not there
i'm not solid i'm not air
Track Name: My Best Friend
my best friend's in the hospital
she's got catheters for eyes
her skin peels off in rivulets
acid devours her spine

your insides are trying to kill ya
your organs are cutting your throat
your intestines are up in flames
your kidneys ache with stones

the minds we were always afraid of
have grown flesh and bone
and i leave my body to the undergrowth
and i leave my soul to the undertow

now you're sleeping on a sea of blood
like the one that i can't believe jesus spilled for us
you were the one i thought would not run
you were the one i thought i couldn't scare off

your body is drowning in your insides
your skin is inverting and your nerves are untied
flowers on the bloodstained sheets
formaldehyde fills your heartbeat

needles line the fissures of your skull
lesions and scabs sting with iron jaws
these are the violences that crawl
these are the shadows that bite and gnaw

your insides are trying to kill ya
your organs are cutting your throat
your intestines are up in flames
her kidneys ache with stones

the minds we were always afraid of
have grown flesh and bone
and i leave my body to the undergrowth
and i leave my soul to the undertow

still my pride won't let me call
Track Name: She's
he's got her wrapped up in his game
he's got a gravestone and he's carving her name
and the date he's picked for his crime
the day he leaves his body behind

but if she leaves him where will she go
you'd find her buried under six feet of snow

she won't talk about it to anyone
she who was so full of light once
she's got her heart wrapped in a box of blood
she's giving it to him all wrapped up

he comes from a long line of
boys who've seen their fathers die
and the gun he fires
just might bring him back to life

and if he leaves her where will he go
he can't be on his own

i want a love just like that
i want a love just like that

one inch away from death
broken and violent but true

yeah we all become bones
might as well sell our souls
while we still have souls to sell

just to be seen (see me)
not left back not called nothing

they can't leave each other where will they go
so they stay and they're gonna grow old
Track Name: Serial Killer Mansions
there's something kinda romantic
about that serial killer's mansion
i find the whole spectacle kinda beautiful

they say he killed sixty men
but they can't put him in prison
so they gave him a mansion
and everybody else lives in heaven

so cut me open break apart my skin
tie me to the bed and
leave me with nothing in my head

our great men and their guns
our great wars and their gods
our martyrs, everybody's dying for their brothers

so rip me open, let's start our war
doesn't matter what we're fighting for
i wanna live inside my head
could you be my charles manson

sometimes i think that killers know the answers yeah
there's no meaning is there
we create it all ourselves
so let's dance in a rain of shells

yeah i've been thinking
there's no reason for all this suffering
i kinda wanna blow the world up
will you do it with me
we could go down in history

after all the man just behind that door
killed sixty million or more
by sending them to war
across the ocean

so rip me open let's fight our noble war
there was never anything to fight for
show me show me what's behind the door
what do they know that we don't

let's do what only god does
we understand your charade man in air
and we could play your game if we dare

there's something kinda romantic
about that serial killer's mansion
way up in the stars, he watches
yeah he could keep us alive forever if he wanted

but he rips us open and he sends us to war
can we rule the world beyond heaven's door
the graveyards the stained glass windows
kinda beautiful
and so dark

i can't see my hands in front of my face
but i can see the lights on top of that serial killer's place
Track Name: Do You Want Me
i only ever wanna be somewhere else
can you take me away from myself

i changed myself into who i thought you wanted me to be
now i don't want me

sparkling blue rivers opening
i was frozen in the waiting room
i changed colors i changed form
waiting for you

filled my mouth with weeds, cut off my teeth
slid through the echelons of gravity
down to the ninth circle
where you said you'd be

i only ever wanna be somewhere else
can you take me away from myself

in the halo purgatory
of this demon's city
wandering the streets
you showed me how beautiful it was to bleed

did you think that i was ordinary
cause i've cut that part right out of me
and it's on the ground bleeding
look at me you'd be so proud you see (i'm gonna make you see)

i only ever wanna be somewhere else
can you take me away from myself
i need to be in control
you said i need to burn to grow

take me take my body away
take these clusters of bones and veins
i wanna go on an airplane
i wanna run away, i wanna run away

i only ever wanna be somewhere else
can you take me away from myself

do you want me
take me i'm free
Track Name: Praying in the Night
run night rider
run like the wind
run past the burned out farmhouse
they'll try to get inside your head

run night rider
run through the driving rain
they'll try to crawl up through your veins

and i'll be praying in the night to you
praying that you'll make it through
they'll be praying in the night to me and you soon

run night rider
run through the wind and the rain
they'll try to get in your brain
they'll try to tell you how to think

run night rider
run through the sea and the stars
run from the radiation
remember that your mind is yours

they’ll try to take you
drag you down and cut off your tongue
peel the wind from the sky
and bottle up your blood

run, night rider
run through the ash and the blood
run through the crumbling city,
don’t give them what they want

don’t give them what they want
they’ll try to take your thoughts
don’t give them what they want

run through the seas of flame
run past the broken lamplights
leave behind your past and your name

run night rider
they’ll try to make you one of them
a steel robot a cog in their machine
they’ll tell you that you’re crazy
Track Name: Elegy for a Frog
where are you going, where have you been
i see stories written all over your skin
over bridges, under water
sweet divine, heaven's daughter
married jesus christ in sacrifice to holy wine in paradise

and you would not surrender your name
so i was sent away

where are you going, where have you gone
it's been so long, do you think that we could talk
do you remember that night i carried your body to the lakeside
blood in your eyes, organs out your mouth half alive

you who would not surrender your dreams
no matter how many times i tried to make you see that

i never wanted a prince
i was never a princess
i wanted you as you were
i hated that they made you hurt
all the people that were so afraid
but you don't have to change
just stay

it's rained every day since we lost touch
clouds folding, storms and summers fossilize and rust
and i was left to roam the back woods with blood on my hands
i thought about you during every single death

you who would not surrender your dreams
no matter how many times i tried to make you see that

i never wanted a prince
i was never a princess
i'm selfish and ungrateful
but i hope you know that
i want you as you are
don't change yourself

don't change yourself
don't do what they want

you don't need a kiss to make your wounds whole

we are dead stars in space
why don't we collide and detonate
when they hold the gun to your face
they'll be killing me too

i never wanted a prince
i was never a princess
they try to tear you apart
but you don't have to be what they want
you're perfect as you are

you don't need to change yourself to be beautiful
you don't need a kiss to make your wounds whole

we are dead stars in space
why don't we collide and detonate
when they hold the gun to your face
they'll be killing me too
Track Name: Nyx
i was born the moon equal to the sun
but they told me there could only be one
and he had won

so i'd have to die each month
to be born again from a sea of blood

what they don't know is i carry the world
and i have the power to destroy it
i can keep the demons out of your head
or i can invite them in

born of chaos, mother of death and beauty
find me at the crossroads where all souls come to meet

i walk the road between mortal and divine
black sun burning till the light blinds
i will not lie beneath you, i'll meet your eyes
i cannot be controlled, cast out of paradise
now i ride the road of the night

i swallow souls, i haunt the solar eclipse
i am the moth the bird the butterfly cast in obsidian
married to the fire, devil's bride
i am the red flame in the sunlight

and you need me to be reborn
i am the dark matter, the heart that beats under the floor
i am the wolf at the door
and i could set the bomb off and end it all

i walk the road between mortal and divine
black sun burning till the light blinds
i will not lie beneath you, i'll meet your eyes
i cannot be controlled, cast out of paradise
now i ride the road of the night

you haven't seen the last of me
Track Name: Headless Horseman
i can't dream without sleeping pills
they're the only things that help me unwind
i've been listening to the howling wind
i've been waiting for a sign

in the back rooms of the face of the moon
watching airplanes burn in flight
when you've seen heaven and hell like me
it's hard to sleep at night

tried to tell you i'm a liar
don't bother wasting your time
i'm a headless horseman
with nowhere to ride

i'm finding people don't like you
when you have no face and no eyes
still i hear and see out of my neck
and most of the time it's fine

in the back rooms of the face of the moon
watching airplanes burn in flight
no i've never seen heaven or hell
nothing's ever been real in my life

so i wander highways
going places i should not go
can't settle down so i float
through the night on my own

and i can't get you out of my head
cause my head is long gone
lying at the bottom of the well
at the end of it all

i'll find it again, till then
i ride endlessly
Track Name: Angels in the Valley of Death
i know you want to kill yourself
i know you want to try to
please don't do that, please don't do that
i love you

take my hand we can walk through the wind and the rain
pull apart our backs and find the wings
coiled inside of our ribs
we could begin again

take my hand though the sun's on fire
i love you please don't try tonight
leave the sharp objects to the butterflies

we could walk through the night wind
you keep sharp objects like crescent moons
like portals or wounds begging us to bloom

take my hand though the sun's on fire
i love you please don't try tonight
leave the sharp objects to the butterflies
to the coral reefs and oceans, for the morning light

we could walk through the wind and the rain
i know heaven looks good when it's all lit up like that
it's hollywood, it's like a movie
but don't fall for the bright lights
don't let them consume you

we could walk on water or broken glass
angels in the valley of death

cover ourselves in lighter fluid
see every broken place and find the ruins of
ancient druid temples and haunted roads
find the green places learn how to grow

cause death is the only perfection we can reach
so come break the rules of the universe with me
cause the universe doesn't want us to exist
it hates us cause it wants to be infinite

so come break the rules with me
angels of death in the valley of infinity
come scream against everything with me

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